Tonight at the first service for Swu’s Spiritual Emphasis 2009 it was
said that God can’t or maybe won’t meet us where we pretend to be but
will meet us where we are. That hit me right in the face and I began
to think of what that means, it started to make me think about where I
am. Am I pretending to be where I think I am? Have I been pretending
for so long that I believe I’m in a place I’m not? Where am I really?
As I start to evaluate these questions I realize that I am fake with
myself. I’ve been asking God for a week now and to challenge me and I
was wondering why God wasn’t doing anything. Why God why aren’t you
doing anything? Until tonight I thought God was doing something wrong
and the possibility that I was doing something wrong never even
crossed my mind. Why do I do that I never think I’m the problem….do
I forget that God is the perfect one….? God challenged me tonight
finally and it’s something I’ve been challenged with before but I lost
it. He challenged me to be real with myself. No more “I’m fine” or
“I’m doing better than him.” It’s time to be real. It’s time to
evaluate where we are and let God meet us there and maybe we will find
that God has a lot more to show us than what we’ve been seeing. Let’s
be real.
Where Am I?
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Sometimes I think the hardest thing is to be truthful. Truthfulness with friends and family is the easy part. You know at the end of the day that they still love you. And truthfulness with God is easy too, as you already know that he knows you inside and out because you are his wonderful creation. But to be truthful with yourself on any and all accounts is the most difficult thing we as humans will face. To accept that you screw up, to accept that you fail and still wake up and love yourself wholly? I can’t do that everyday. I am lucky if I do once a week. But if you accept who you are, you accept that you sin, and it opens up this whole new world of understanding and peace within your heart. This deeper level of love of yourself and God’s most precious piece of art, helps you connect with him in a way you can’t dream about. Our heavenly Father is strong and he is wise. He will always show you the ways to become who he wants you to be.